Insomnia, anxiety and depression.

I'm suffering from insomnia, anxiety and depression since 2012.In starting my treatment though allopathy medicines by a private doc..than my condition goes worst and i decided to go aiims and now I'm talking treatment from aiims since 2014.in between treatment I'm fed up of these allopathy medicines and I stopped many times and start when I fell worst.. I'm very sad and also taking alcohol too much in these days and also stops many times..doctor gave many types medicines but these like addiction.. sleeping pills, depression and anxiety tablets.but i lost my self.I feel like  not to be alive ..not seen clearly from my eyes but my vision is fine.. I'm just fed up this.my Nature is also changed.i lost my behaviour..than i admit 2mon.NIA for my ayurvedic treatment they help me alot.but my disease is not over..now i also start allopathic.ehat i do i can't know..i just wanna die.i think there is no way to cure me..my family problems is also responsible for it.idnt know how i cured