No Mental rest. , no motivation.

Hi , I always be in worst mood , unable to think productive or positivity in life. Many situations got irritated me like my best friend unnecessaryily ignored me for few days I am still not able to cope up with him. Always I started removing negative things from him after that he neglected as I got irritated. And he ignores me now also but talking good without sharing anything as if we are in contact list. As we fighted he just talks no sharing no caring And I am really having high feeling of best friend with him, I don't want to loose friendship. He was the one person in my life whom I shared everything , he is still in the same position but unable to cope up with him as there is no response from other side also. May be this is hitting my mental health also. The thing is I am not feeling comfortable with anyone. Or I am not opening up myself to anyone. Always in negative mood , No positive energy in myself like no workouts ,no motivation.