Scared takin mental meds. Improved much?

Hi doctor. It has been 9months i dropped smoking marijuana . And until i was smoking i had no problems and i was motivated for do things and positive about my future. Because of severe panic attacks i stopped taking marijuana and its been 9 months i m better but still i m guilty and foggy mind i find my self useless because i m not working i left my job because i tried once to go to job but after cming from job i was shaking and felt like crying like hell. I still avoid going out and i feel exhausted and my eyes always tired and sleepy. After cming from gym i feel so upset and anxious. Its like my life and brain is changed completely. When ever i go to alone place or unknown places i feel Nervous and dizzy and i Freaked out. Unable to focus (driving,watching tv,writing.) I feel like i will faint. I dont know waiting for 9 month why i Haven't improved much? I m scared of taking medicines i heard they dont work well and it can give me more disorders and severe pain.plz doctor help me out