Have all symptoms of BPD. Humiliates me.

Self-worth is important in a relationship. If you don't value and respect yourself, no matter how your partner is, you will still not be able to feel it. Never let anyone else define who you are. when we start to rely on what other people think of us, and we make their opinion pivotal to our success, we get into trouble. We start tailoring our lives to fit the expectations of others, and from there it's a vicious cycle. When we give over our power to others and allow that their impressions to become how we perceived, we lose out on who we really are and the only reality we can see is how we believe others see us.

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Hi i can understand ur situation. Counseling is needed to explore ur worries, pains, negative thoughts with me. Feel free to express ur concerns i will help u to deal with emotional distress.

I understand your predicament. I want you to know that you deserve nothing short of the best just like everyone else does. You are worthy enough to have healthy relationships based on unconditional respect, love and care. However, recent experiences no doubt have been challenging to the extreme, making you doubt everything, including your own sanity and sense of judgment. The good news is, regardless of how many times your trust is betrayed, you being invalidated as a person, you have it in you to move forward, realize your aspirations and lead a purposeful and successful life. Here are a few suggestions that could help you get back on track. Kindly read what follows : The nature of the Mind, which in simple terms we experience as thoughts, is such that, it will keep shifting its focus from one object/topic/event to another. Today the mind might be fixated on something. Tomorrow it could be another topic/event/person. Another important characteristic of the Mind is this - You may either have thoughts about the past or the future. Try thinking about the present moment - you will see that you cannot have thoughts about the present moment. The Mind has 3 states in general. Sometimes, you may find yourself having very positive, inspiring thoughts. During other times, you may find yourself very emotional, or all charged for action. Whereas during other times, you may feel very lethargic, dull or lazy. These states may keep alternating. Having understood the nature of the mind, the first step towards mental health is to become aware of your thoughts. Learning to be an observer of your thoughts, learning to observe them from a distance like clouds passing in the sky. Just like how the clothes you are wearing right now are yours, but not you, thoughts that you experience from time to time are yours, but not you. The next step is knowing that you have the power to choose which thought you wish to focus on and act on and exercising that power. With practice, you will have better mastery over this process. When you repeatedly focus on a thought ( that springs from a belief that you have and which is threatening or disturbing by nature ) and identify with it, believing it to be true, the corresponding emotion rises in your brain. It overpowers your capability to think rationally. The cycle repeats and hence you feel imprisoned by your own thoughts and emotions. As mentioned above, with practice, you will learn to focus and entertain only those thoughts that are healthy enough to be acted upon. Usually when we experience disturbing, anxiety provoking thoughts, we may tend to fight, resist or control them. Again, fighting a thought is like fighting a shadow. You can see it, but it's not real. Fighting a thought or emotion only gives it more power. Say, for instance, when someone asks you not to think of a pink elephant, the first thought that invariably comes to you is that of a pink elephant. Instead, what we can do is, learning to be a distant observer of thoughts ( that are only based on past experiences and hence are no longer true or relevant today or do not serve your highest good ) and not identify with them or act on them. Whenever you feel overwhelmed by thoughts, try bringing your focus back to your breath. Here is a breathing exercise that could help you : You may do this in the night too once you have finished with your tasks for the day : Inhale slowly to a count of four - hold your breath to a count of four - exhale slowly to a count of eight. Repeat this ten times. You may do this also in the morning before you begin your daily routine. Gently massage the back of your neck and the base of the skull when you lie down to rest. Whatever you feed your mind through your sense organs will be replayed to you as thoughts. Be conscious of this. Take care of the content you feed your mind - the kind of books you read, the websites you visit, the kind of music you listen to, the kind of food you eat, the kind of company you keep ( "You are an average of five people you spend most of your time with" ) Our attitude towards life in general and things in particular is based on our Beliefs - what we believe to be true about ourselves and the world. What are your core beliefs about yourself and the world? Do you believe that you are worthy of having healthy relationships based on unconditional respect, love and care? Try writing them down and examine the validity of these beliefs. Some of them may be limiting and negative in nature because of the kind of feedback you received while growing up - at home, in school, from your classmates, friends, relatives, etc. But once you are aware of them, you shed light on them,examine their truth, they can no longer manipulate your behavior or actions. As your beliefs change, your attitude changes, and words, actions and behavior follow. One of the definitions of stress is the thought(s) or the belief that you don't have the capability and the resources to address, to deal with, to successfully overcome the challenge(s) that is right in front of you now. Consider the components of this equation - On one end you have the object that induces this belief in you ( it might be a person/event/situation ). Is there anything you can do to change this side of the equation? On the other end, you have your resources to tackle it - reflect on whether you have done all you can to prepare for it/address it/ do justice to it. Please set aside time for exercise daily and make sure you eat healthy every time. Our challenges that seem to threaten our very existence are the ones that serve as fuel for our evolution. Here are a few links that could be helpful : https://fit.practo.com/#!/content/41615 https://fit.practo.com/#!/content/41716 https://fit.practo.com/#!/content/41867 https://fit.practo.com/#!/content/41735 https://fit.practo.com/#!/content/41642 https://fit.practo.com/#!/content/41639 Step One https://fit.practo.com/#!/content/41640 Step Two https://fit.practo.com/#!/content/41641 Step Three https://fit.practo.com/#!/content/41645 Step Four Take care.

If YOU are ok, everything appears as ok. If YOU are not ok, everything appears as not ok. It is not everything that decides YOU, It is YOU who decides everything I understand your pain. When there is any issue in Yes and  No conflict.  Yes No Yes No Yes No Yes No....... this thing take over your mind One day lock between Yes and No leads to get emotional, health and relationship disturbances.You will struck, you can't see anything, mind becomes blank, mind runs at faster pace than usual, clutter of thoughts, not able to single small actions... this things usually happens.... So don't worry accept your situation and take a step forward to resolve and unlock the YES and NO conflict. Get lucid and clear thoughts. You will be fine for the rest of your life. Become Ok and your surroundings will become okay. Good luck

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