Not depressed , but still suicidal.

For as long time as I know , I always considered myself depressed . Even when people tried to convince me I am not , I always just never believed them and never listened , because I know , I was . I know it's wrong to just say " I have depression " just by internet symptoms, but I just couldn't more . Everything seemed so true to me ... from feeling hopeless and worthless to having no interest in my old activities to suicidal thoughts and actions . Now I can tell the difference , I am not depressed anymore . I am normal and kinda fine with everything compared to my "depression " days . But whenever I am stressed or a little hurt , i directly start thinking of suicide again .... and how everything is useless .... whenever stress gets to me , I can't stop of suicide thoughts .