Skin Lightening Depression. On my skin.

Hello Sir/Mam, Greetings, First of all I want to say that everyone in my family is fair. I too was until the age of 4-5 then I became dark completely. Due to that,  I had to face criticism. So in 2016, I heard from a friend about a cream named panderm plus and I used it and after using it I became considerably fair enough. Now that I know about it's effects,  I stopped it and after stopping it, I became darker again.  Although there are no pimples on my face,  but this had made me depresseda lot in my life.So please consider my case so that whether I can use that steroid again for short term or there are any other alternatives at affordable cost. Please kindly help don't send automated messages about consulting if you cant help my  depression .Also, panderm plus is not available I think,  and even if it is available,  it is not working on my skin.