Depersonalization and derealisation diso

I suffering from symptoms since 2012 till now like I am not living in my body my emotions and feelings are out of my body and not attached to my body feel like a pure blind people and robot and feel like lives in dreams and feel like unconscious and unreality from 24/7 from 12 years persentently I consult many psychiatric hospitals like nimhans and erragadda mental hospital and they give different medicine and counselling like cbd medicine like lamtrogine and lorazepam and fluxetine and paroxetine and clonazepam and olanzapine escitalopram give different medicine for my every consultation changes medicine and I also try some breathing exercises and mindfulness techniques... This my story and till I had same symptoms now continue no change of symptoms even use continuous medicine plz help me it is my life because I get some suicidal feelings because by this problem I am not reading books with focus and concentrate even work place also inferior...plz help